An Essay from another time

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The spirit was just waking up on a sunny morning in his castle.
He looked outside, just to find that the world had
disapeared. But where had it gone ? God only knows so he
went back to sleep for a couple of thousand years.

The spritit was starting to wake, to materialize it had
done it before but that had been so long ago. The spirit
felt the universe it was still under controll but it
could sense that it might have sliped out of control
somewhere along the line this time. There was someting
new, a feeling of knowledge that hasn't been there before.
It realized that things might have gone out of control
this time but it was a risk it had to take in order to
get energy to create. The spirit charged on the dreams
of the billion of dreams and prayers and wishes.
But lately the dreams had not only been depressing but
horrible. More horrible than ever, actually causing the
spirit to wake. During the last dream period man had
developed in a unexpected way. Humans had managed to get
to understand almost everything and maybe more than the
spirit itself. But they had not relized the source yet but
they were getting closer as time went on.

She bend down on her nees praying that if there was a
god he better turn up pretty soon or there wold be
nothing left to care about. She looked on her faded
body, which had onece made her living. She had been
lucky, well if it was possible to call her present
situation as lucky, that was. As everybody else she had
tried to get an education but there were few which made
it throug on their own. Well which actually had the
oppertunity to learn things on their own. The majorety
of the people, which was stupid or slow learners simply
had to get a knowledge operation. If you where rich you
could get a quite nice operation which made you capable
of functioning in a decent work. Or if you were not that
well off, you had the cheep goverment operations which
in the best case made you capable of understandign the
goverments messages and orders. Lots of the operations
went fucking wrong, but that was no problem for the
goverment the just suched the spirit out of them and
used is a fuel in their fucking hi-bio-tech shit
knowledge system. That was where she were know. But she
was better of than most of the souls in here, which
lived in constant darkness. Most of them insainly crazy,
but that was just what the system wanted. As a warped
mind is creating much more impulsed and ideas than a
sane one. She had been quite a pretty sight when she was
in her physical state, but as almost everything else
fade away with time. But she had managed to save up
enough energy on her account, so that the interest could
pay for her eyes. Once every year she had enough energy
to get into her physical state for a few pressios
minutes.

The child is eating its mother, the man is eating it's
creator. Man is killing it's source, the source needs man
to be, man needs the source to be. If man eats the
source then man will become the source. But what will
man become. How can something become so big within its
creator that theyr capable of swallowing it in one bite.
If the bubble inside the bubble grows to become as big
as the outer bubble the outer bubbel dissapears.
The only way of getting bigger than biggest is to become
infinite. Infinite is a stupid word. Infintie is where
the human mind stops, where the imagination stops, where
it source stops. Man tinks he knows everything until he
descover something knew, and he's not resting before he
feel pretty shure he knows everything. Why do you want
to know everything ? Because of the human curiosity,
which made man getting out of the cave. Why did he ?
Well maybe he thought it would be funny to know what
that light in the end of the cave was. Who knows, Who
care. Can you take it, nobody can. Nobody can hadle to
know everything because the sudden realization will
burst that persons mind into so many pices that it would
never be possible to glue it together. The wonder about
the existance, the need to know more, to know and
understand everything is the source to destruction. So
the source makes man be man but the man wants the
source, once he gets it the man becomes the source and
the source disapears along with man so there becomes
nothing. The need for knowledge is the cause of
the selfdestruction. For long man has ignored the source
because he could not understand the existance of non-
physical things. Once he knew but the spirit took it
away because man could not take care of the gift.
What kiced Adam out of paradice ? Sin ? Wrong,
curiosity!